And It's Just The Beginning

The notes are old,

The music as familiar as breathing,

My secrets have already been sold,

My heartbeats no longer regular.

Night falls and I wander,

My footsteps echoing in the dark,

Always alone with no thoughts in my mind,

I enjoy the silence, finally.

Cigarette smoke linger in the tangle of my dying curls,

My lips painted red, I do not care,

The bittersweet taste of consequences on my tongue,

Will never turn into the rust of regret,

I know my heart and it changes,

With each passing moment,

It is ephemeral in the way it loves.

Nobody but you can trust in its immortality,

If only you knew!

Too transient for everybody but somehow,

you.

You came along and put your hands on me,

And I question everything.

De Noviembre, Luna Loca

Even when you've left,

I can still feel you,

your gentle breath on my skin,

your sleeping face in my hands.

Even towns apart,

you manage to catch my fall.

The nights have been too frantic,

madness personified,

we dance through the flashing lights,

we talk through the difficult hours.

Why have you picked me?

Out of all the flowers in this vast field, why me?

I adorn myself with what you've given me and I

can see behind your hazel eyes,

I am there, in your thoughts.

When will you take me with you,

when will these broken weeks come to an end?

Do you not know, baby?

Stop refusing the darkness within this,

let the right one in so some light can shine through.

Come back home,

come home and hold me and never let me go,

how you could not before.

C'est La Vie, St Albans

Rust creeps into my blood,

The wind takes me elsewhere,

The thought of leaving you behind was a reprieve,

But your name resounds in my heart

And so I reach for you,

To find you,

To find you already here.

For some reason or other,

The universe draws us closer,

As we fight, drowning in solitary misery,

No matter how far we think we can run from it,

Love finds us, it binds us until we can no longer

breathe free of it.

In this place away from home,

I have come looking for crystals,

Candle light flickers from the dark windows

lining this street with no name,

Magic is only a myth here as I find the

crystals packed away in boxes,

And as I walk away,

In the cold as darkness falls early,

I see you, in your damned long coat and my

will falters.

Shall we just swallow the truth like honey?

On The Edge Of Glory, Hanging Onto The Truth

For my sweetheart the drunk,

I dance in his arms as I light up the stars in his heart.

Can I survive this, this recurrence of fate?

As we lay in bed,

he tells me everything and nothing I want to know,

as the words tumble out from his lips as it rests on mine,

I learn his closely guarded secret.

I am not alone in this,

this wretched madness,

I am not alone as he takes hold of both my hands

and whispers sweet nothings.

We are both fucked,

as we look into each other's eyes and

smiling becomes an involuntary function,

he asks me my name.

How?

How does he know I answer to a different name,

that I march to a different beat.

How does he know anything when I've let on nothing.

This is dangerous,

what we've been doing.

We can predict the ending,

tears have already been shed,

why is he still holding onto me,

why do I still kiss him?

Before the music subsides,

before the night is through,

before the year is over,

can we resolve this,

do we even want to anymore?

Peace for Love

for too long my window couldn't be opened

for fear of freedom,

you kept me at bay.

but watch me air my opinions now,

do you have anything to say?

took my books away,

you didn't want me to grow up,

take my pen away,

you don't want me to rebel.

all you see are malleable minds,

you cannot see the soul that dwells inside,

wanting to fly, waiting to outshine you all.

who would've thought

all your big talk,

all the propaganda

is just your mask of greed.

i admit defeat,

you will not change,

power calls, its voice to great,

but just you wait,

the truth will prevail

and how will you hide,

how will you run,

when the fire you suppressed comes roaring out.

so finally, i unlock my window,

watch my wings,

they've grown beautifully wrong.

you clipped them back but it wasn't enough,

can't shut me up without compromising yourself.

you lied to us,

took away our voice,

but hear me sing now,

what do you have to say?

i say bring them home,

let there be peace for love,

fireplaces and living rooms deserve a man at home,

been empty too long while you fought

too long, too long this despair you brought,

disguised as duty,

you know nothing of it.

so hear me sing

what have you got to say?

Transcendental

Her mind was an open field;

He reveled in its spaciousness,

Dancing in the splendour of its simplicity.

Her hands grew hot,

Glowing like an ember.

Their eyes met from across the room,

Impossibility forgotten,

They invited each other into what was once separate.

There were no impediments to the connection,

It pulled them together,

Enclosing them in a haven of blue light,

Calm, beautiful and everlasting.

She loved him with all her heart

And he's stopped warding off the insanity.

Such a sweet consequence of sin this was,

He did not care that her powers were terrifying,

She did not care that he knew of her most closely-guarded secret.

The universe descended upon them,

A blanket of night sky,

The backdrop to their northern lights.

This love was transcendental,

An ascension claimed their hearts,

They were no longer apart,

That amazing blue light sealing their bond,

Their hands touched

And the future exploded.

Cancer Boy

the simplest things would set him off

off and away on a voyage of his own

and he drowns in the murky, tainted waters

of his zodiac.

i could only watch in despair

and frustration grows

at a loss as to what there is for me to do

to bring him back home.

i am a hypocrite walking away

but my heart constricts

and my belly churns

ordering my feet to take me into space.

i breathe alone,

my nicotine-laced exhalations

murdering the environment.

my love is solid,

a physical corporeal being engulfing the earth.

in decadence i indulge

choosing to forget the life i have to lead

selective of my memories and fantasies.

he is the one

perfect

i know this in the deep chasms of my soul

but. my experience and my mind is waging war

on my delirious heart.

we have reached a stalemate,

cancer boy and i.

i hug him,

hoping for my light to transfer

unto him like osmosis.

such an ugly dying world we occupy

beauty only a notion in our eyes

i cannot carry this

the weight of water is crushing on me

calm down, Cancer Boy,

i am not a mirage,

i am yours to have

for as long as you would have me.